Garrettmeister

Today I am blogging about my son Garrett. My middle son Garrett is much like his mom. He has a huge heart but can get grumpy when things don't pan out right. He also has Austistic tendencies.

It's hard for Garrett because people don't always understand his thousand words a minute and his lack of self-control and social skills. At the same time, he sounds like a little professor when he talks. He cracks me up how his colorful language creates such visual fireworks.

There are times when I feel bad when I see the expressions of hurt on his face. He wants so bad to be accepted. But, the reality of my son is that as much as he is loving, he is also annoying. His life is like a roller coaster that never stops for a hiatus. Constantly moving activity, can annoy people who like quiet car rides and just want a moment of peace. He doesn't actually equal a balanced equation for the people who like 1 plus 1 equals two.

Garrett simply does not add up to a perfect equation. But, I'm so glad that Garrett is part of my family. He has taught me so much.

I have to remind myself to be patient with Garrett and to show him how much he means to me. I often wonder if he knows that. I look at him now and I see the ending of childhood and the stirrings of young adulthood. He is growing up and I know life is not going to be easy for him as he does not represent the norm.

Currently, I have Garrett in counseling to help with his self-esteem issues from being different. Every time he leaves counseling he has this huge smile. It is well worth it. I have to laugh as my husband took him out to shoot a BB gun and even let Garrett wear his army jacket from when he was in the military. Garrett has been sporting that jacket with a huge grin. Hopefully, those moments will weather the frequent storms that he will experience.

I never knew that my life was going to be so unbalanced. But, being in this position has given me this tough protective covering with plenty shards of emotion and love. Maybe, it has helped me to see beyond the cookie cutterness of life.

I just love that kid.