Sometimes....

Sometimes I have to remember that not all things come our way,
that our visions need not be everyone's vision.
I've been so blessed in that 98% of the time that things have been in my favor. I had gotten used to the smoothness of life like a perfectly spread peanut butter on a roughened piece of toast. Lately, I've had the resistance of beating my head on the wall. It happens and as I watch the television channels reporting on Haiti, there is that nagging voice telling me inside to appreciate my total surroundings and not take things for granted.

So, here I am at work with ideas bubbling in my head like a slow brew. And when things don't come to a boil, I feel sort of left down. Reality to head, teenagers have a different agenda. So, as I struggle with two of my fifteen your old students being pregnant, two extremely tough students with behavior issues, and the constant rumor mill about lay offs that are causing my normal happy co-workers to unravel, I find myself reveling in giving-up-ness instead of that glass is half full philosophy state of mind.

It was said that forgivness and bad thoughts are like a invading cancer. On days like this I want to remember the Serenity Prayer that I encountered from my first marriage to an alcoholic. Although my marriage did not sustain, the words have been a constant companion. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.

Pretty smart advice.